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Post by Deleted on Aug 21, 2016 20:43:06 GMT
ok, so in my search for an old school paper, I happened upon this garbage. I only saved it, because of how it really expressed how I felt at the time and yet, my teacher (whom I could NEVER understand) told me it was crap, or something like that, as well. well, here you have it! Seriously, laugh with me! I'm not proud of it by any means, but sometimes you just have to say f' it, and whatever flows out. right? idk ok. here, (circa 2002) Inside of Me
"When I talk to someone, whether formal or in a speech, I always lose my "track" of the topic and let nervousness kick in. Thoughts as; Am I a fool or what? I can't do this! I don't even know what I am talking about!" run through my mind as I speak. I just want to scream out loud, "can someone else do this for me!? Please!"
What did I just say? I don't know. The worst thing to happen to me is when I know what I want to say but I say that I don't know what to say. My legs are moving like a busy bee and my palms are sweaty. What am I talking about? All I can think about is my hands. I am trying to make eye contact. Whoops! I forgot what I was saying...again! Note to self; pause, then move on. So far this speech is making no sense. "What's my point?" I ask myself. "the audience something. I finish with, "I'm done!"
hahaha omg! that was a little painful to type...especially that end. wtf! right?
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Post by KaTune on Aug 21, 2016 20:53:11 GMT
I liked it doll. I was there with ya the whole ride and loved So I Married An Axe Murderer just because of that video you posted! Beautiful! Yay Myers
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Post by KaTune on Aug 21, 2016 20:56:57 GMT
"Poe"try Alone From childhood's hour I have not been As others were -- I have not seen As others saw -- I could not bring My passions from a common spring -- From the same source I have not taken My sorrow -- I could not awaken My heart to joy at the same tone -- And all I lov'd -- I lov'd alone -- Then -- in my childhood -- in the dawn Of a most stormy life -- was drawn From ev'ry depth of good and ill The mystery which binds me still -- From the torrent, or the fountain -- From the red cliff of the mountain -- From the sun that 'round me roll'd In its autumn tint of gold -- From the lightning in the sky As it pass'd me flying by -- From the thunder, and the storm -- And the cloud that took the form (When the rest of Heaven was blue) Of a demon in my view --
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Post by Deleted on Aug 21, 2016 21:06:23 GMT
I liked it doll. I was there with ya the whole ride and loved So I Married An Axe Murderer just because of that video you posted! Beautiful! Yay Myers this honestly means sooo much to me! All these damn years! I KNEW I couldn't be alone! That teacher was just a bitch. haha Ok, now yours-well, it's lovely, but honestly, i'll have to read it over and over and over and may still not get it. (i get lost in the hypnotic rhymes^^ and lose focus) I'm sooo bad with poetry, you have no idea! And again, I blame that teacher! grr! lol alright alright...don't hate her though...just disliked that we didn't understand one another.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 21, 2016 21:09:59 GMT
p.s. I never saw that movie until only a few years back...because I always thought it was gonna be too scary. omg! haha
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Post by KaTune on Aug 21, 2016 21:13:33 GMT
Stupid vitches! I swear most teachers do more harm than good. Ha! As for the poem, it's from Poe's lips, not mine. I write a looot, but some stuff was saved on a hard drive that crashed forever lost, some in journals which I burned in a fit of madness. I've got songs I've written, but they are a bit personal... maybe I'll share... who knows
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Post by KaTune on Aug 21, 2016 21:14:04 GMT
p.s. I never saw that movie until only a few years back...because I always thought it was gonna be too scary. omg! haha Ha! Far from scary eh?
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Post by Deleted on Aug 21, 2016 21:24:58 GMT
yeah i know right! haha
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Post by KaTune on Aug 22, 2016 5:00:34 GMT
Sooo this is a song I wrote when I was a kid.. nonsensicalramblings
(Kick drum, snare, kick drum, snare, cymbal crash...whah guitar up the neck...)
Is it a commercial world we live in? Why can't we think for ourselves? Now what is there left to believe in? These recycled thoughts, they need some help What's the use of hoping when we are told that "ALL THAT YOUT ARE IS ALL YOUR WILL EVER KNOW!!!" No heads are open... No heads are open..
(Cymbal crash)
So we make it our religion Live with it day by day Confused by the old and their wisdom Trying to relate to things that aren't the same Now what's the use of history if you can't learn from the mistakes You must be joking You must be joking
(Funky bass solo inserted here baw whah chicka baw wow) (Supa dramatic cymbal cccrassshhh)
The machine is taking over!! Now coming from all sides!!!! In a pretty box of color!!!!! And from it you can't hide!!!!!! The pressure builds but you are programmed And that's all "they" ever wanted But we're still left hoping We're still left hoping..... We're still left hoping..... We're still left hoping.......
(Fading off into a kick drum heart beat... Cymbal ccrraaassshhh!)
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Post by Deleted on Aug 22, 2016 19:33:45 GMT
Haha! this amuses me even more as I type it, with all the punctuation and everything. This is my stab at, or my impression of poetry...I'll let you see the subtleties for yourself. *cheeky grin ^^ (circa 2005) The neutral day tinged with a memory, we sat still and the gentle the sky opened its heavenly gate and there stood the devil with a smug? grin on his face. My hands felt cold as the sun beat upon them. His eyes looked to mine in the darkness of an impenetrable itch. Mad were wore her lips in a sin serene kiss, with two eyes planted in the center. With Halloween on its way one could only think of death. What more did he want after taking away my only insanity?Omg! I love poetry! Hey, are we allowed to...idk. I found this one poem submission years ago on the internet. I printed it out and still have it all these years. I found it brilliant!...but idk if I can find it again online, and it's a tad long to type out...if it is even ethical to share? i don't know. ?? Probably won't. But it was brilliant!
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Post by KaTune on Aug 22, 2016 20:47:36 GMT
Wow @haircare great imagery! Makes me wanna take you behind a barn and play with spiders but really sug, that was great!
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Post by Deleted on Aug 22, 2016 21:57:51 GMT
Wow @haircare great imagery! Makes me wanna take you behind a barn and play with spiders but really sug, that was great! Haha! What!? Lol i dont really like spiders...eh i mean i can watch them but...but the barn sounds fantastic! I want to live on a farm now! Grow veggies and Have the nice large property to go frolic and play....as long as i can invite my friends over. 'Can i Mom?! Can I? Can i?!"
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Post by KaTune on Aug 22, 2016 22:53:18 GMT
Wow @haircare great imagery! Makes me wanna take you behind a barn and play with spiders but really sug, that was great! Haha! What!? Lol i dont really like spiders...eh i mean i can watch them but...but the barn sounds fantastic! I want to live on a farm now! Grow veggies and Have the nice large property to go frolic and play....as long as i can invite my friends over. 'Can i Mom?! Can I? Can i?!" Haha! Ma mind can be a bit all over the place hun... I think of Halloween, then I think of the fake cobwebs people decorate with, then plastic spiders, creepy barns... oh and now the spiders are real.. and we're now at the creepy barn and just wanna play! Ha! Ima weirdo
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Post by Deleted on Aug 22, 2016 23:02:08 GMT
Not weirdo Kat. That's normal! Just...it's just about will. Would you rather let yourself go and go down that path right NOW, or can you save it for another time, and just be in the present because this present is awesome! (Even if flies are mocking your feeble attempts to rid of them )
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Post by KaTune on Aug 22, 2016 23:07:43 GMT
Ewww... The present sux, reality sux, I'd rather be in my own world thank ya very much. I'll find someone else to play with my cobwebs!! Haha! Nooo... I know you're right... blahhh. I'll snap back into reality a bit *but for how long, I really can't say!*
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