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Post by Deleted on Sept 18, 2016 13:23:50 GMT
Blaaahh ramblings
I was looking for the past but the future it found me first. Shock and awesome dawn sun ♡
Like the ribbon which ended races long forgotten.. i was tattered and torn. The rip started first as a constant ache in my lower back and slowly began to consume all that I was... (and what I may, could.. would.. become).
There's no warning for such a cause, just a glimpse of things... hope that shoulda, coulda, woulda come.
Desperation... the Devil's battle cry!!
I reached in the back of mind to see if there might of been some sort of warning, but I just sat there, in silence...incompletely in need, knowing that "it" was enviable.
Ohh death, a welcomed friend. Strike and spike this soul, as it has not the patience to suffer agonizing practical jokes of an unforgiving nature.....
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Post by Deleted on Sept 18, 2016 14:24:19 GMT
 you ok there Kat? ... I was thinking, once I compile a list of my anxieties (yeah, been happening again, although the last was totally stupid...pretty OCD in fact...or maybe an addictions list! An annoyance list...haha "that really grinds my gears!"  ) Anyway...yeah, maybe then I'll write something again. Problem is, I have to be careful about getting too personal. Ok, well there is anxiety no. 1!  yay! (Sarcastic yay) Yeeesss, noooo... tharr she blows! Ha Up dOwn all around.. just no middle (and all I ever long for is a middle... a constant equator). Balance... yin yang.. sigh I'm finding it hard to believe that while in the mist of creating art... that every bit of your soul doesn't drip like hot wax, sticking to the creative bits! How does one create from within without it being extremely personal? I don't think I would enjoy art such as that. Just sayin  |
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Post by Deleted on Sept 19, 2016 1:00:46 GMT
Hmm, thought maybe better not spam the random thoughts with this one. i guess it should have a title. Hmm...actually, if this is art, it needs a lot of editting! title-work in progress-"The irony of self perception" Shit! Seriously, wtf are the most beautiful people the most insecure!? Is that ...haha it is like that Vonnegut short story. Everyone must be equal or something? What was that?! Anyway, man, I just...shut up people! Be grateful for whatyou have! Unibrow or perfectly sculpted brows! Naturally thin, or naturally big boned. Hmm what else is common? Idek cuz I dont f'n care! Sure, looks matter, but they arent everything and...I mean by looks, I mean well kept and taken care of. You all are perfect how you are! Just imagine I am the most perfect looking person inside and out telling you this...and see? It means something then, right?! idk! I'm not perfect, but ...well, you can judge half for yourself. You got the inner me, maybe not who I ought to be (I really could be better), butyou get my soul...so, if you can handle that...well, ok maybe I still haven't bared everything...well, but those who need to hear this, probably already know why that is. shoot! THIS is why I write so much! Cuz you have to "picture"me with words. It is all I have. Sorry for the long rant again. Please dont be frightened. |
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Post by Deleted on Sept 19, 2016 14:52:17 GMT
Factoter!!! It was Jack Black who said it in School of Rock! Haha! Not that this news really matters this late in the game!  ------ So, feeling poetic, or wanting to steal others stuff...another song. Idk just came to mind...now I am recalling the artwork from that album. Ahhh yes, the cat! But I was thinking of the vultures, and then I remembered that too had a bleeding heart! **oO** (or whatever the wide eyed emojii thing is! I'm too old for texting! Haha) "Dammit, I Changed Again" Hey, come inside While I stand here acting bold Can't stand to feel this way Clear out the cobwebs in my soul This time I turn around And things have changed Now I don't feel the same Start a fight I can't defend One more time Dammit, I changed again Now I don't see Things the way I did before Can't stand to feel this way Things important yesterday Don't matter anymore It doesn't make any sense To feel so different day to day (Can't stand to feel this way) When nothing's changed except for me |
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Post by Deleted on Sept 19, 2016 14:56:25 GMT
Just loverly carebare
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Post by Deleted on Sept 19, 2016 21:24:46 GMT
Hmm, thought maybe better not spam the random thoughts with this one. i guess it should have a title. Hmm...actually, if this is art, it needs a lot of editting! title-work in progress-"The irony of self perception" Shit! Seriously, wtf are the most beautiful people the most insecure!? Is that ...haha it is like that Vonnegut short story. Everyone must be equal or something? What was that?! Anyway, man, I just...shut up people! Be grateful for whatyou have! Unibrow or perfectly sculpted brows! Naturally thin, or naturally big boned. Hmm what else is common? Idek cuz I dont f'n care! Sure, looks matter, but they arent everything and...I mean by looks, I mean well kept and taken care of. You all are perfect how you are! Just imagine I am the most perfect looking person inside and out telling you this...and see? It means something then, right?! idk! I'm not perfect, but ...well, you can judge half for yourself. You got the inner me, maybe not who I ought to be (I really could be better), butyou get my soul...so, if you can handle that...well, ok maybe I still haven't bared everything...well, but those who need to hear this, probably already know why that is. shoot! THIS is why I write so much! Cuz you have to "picture"me with words. It is all I have. Sorry for the long rant again. Please dont be frightened. found the Vonnegut short story!!! en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Harrison_Bergeron |
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Post by Deleted on Oct 23, 2016 20:52:45 GMT
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you ok there Kat? 
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yay! (Sarcastic yay)
